Y_2_Y
Have you Ever Seen
Your Impotence Eye to Eye ?
Your Body Not Responding ?
Time Having no Mercy?
And Still...
You`re Wide Awake
And Totally Aware of What is Right in Front Of You?
TIME
Is The
SPACE
Where You Insert Your Plans , Hopes and Crazy Desires !
Who Owns The TIME ?
That`s Whoom To Talk To !
posted by ACP ( AKA KALIE ) @ 3:32 AM
2 Comments:
Time. From what I've learned it is a concept designed for us "individual beings" but has no value in a multidimensional world.
Sometimes I understand a little of this and think: Everything is possible. And it is. Other times I am caged and cannot react.
How silly. Because it is me who holds the key to this cage. But, oh, how blind humans can be! I see the cage. I know the key. But in my needless fight with destiny I try to free myself through controlling life. THAT FIGHT IS WHAT MAKES ME IMMOBILE, RIGID, SAD.
Ah, vanity! When will I truly face you and give up struggling for good?
I agree with you , Ben , but sometimes there are circunstances wich are beyond your control , and , living this life is , ITSELF , a new EXPERIENCE EVERYDAY !I Wrote this to express a feeling I once had ( not anymore , or at least , at the moment...one thing I Know is " We never know " ) , but I believe many people may feel this at this very moment ! Who knows if I may not feel it tomorrow? We are on the grounds of the Unknown here , and we have to be humble , I think !
WhenI Wrote this on Y_2_Y posting...It was not about me...It was about somebody else who was VERY CLOSE to me...And , didn`t believe in anything but learning more and more about everthing , open wide his frontiers of knowledge...Thousands of books , millions of experiences , when...All of a sudden...it was given a deadline for him to remain on this earth... His existence on this earth was quickly runing away like as grains of sand runing down on a sand-glass.
Yet , he knew so many things , red so many books , had so much experience in life , stories of joy , survival , lost worlds ...
And as he was lying in bed ,in the darkness of his room ...WAITING...yes , because he was waiting , he was slowly loosing the use each limb at a time, except for awareness that he was slowly begining to loose the control of his body and his life , becoming more and more dependent of others to do the basic needs of a human being ...
He was in pain , but he was aware ,silent , althought he could speack very slowly !
So many times he pretended to sleep , while I was looking at him , saying "goodbye" , but not in a painfull way , in a strange way of supreme kind of love...Because I loved him so much , all I wanted was for him was another reality , with no pain to interfere with his inner essence!I think I never felt a bigger LOVE in my life , then the one I felt on those moments...
When I spoke about TIME , in the posting , was because I Know he had still so much to give to so many !
Making use of his knowledge still here in this reality...
And I literally cross the world to buy him more time before , I too decided to let him go...But when I "accepted" ( is more like it )to let him go , I dedicated myself totally to him , till his last moments here...
I was selfish by wanting time , but that`s a reality we all tend to have when our "sacred land" , or " eternal reality" is suddenly shaken...
He was the first and only man I loved that way , and he was my hero ever since I was born...
The only Hero I ever had...
But we are BOTH Happy NOW and Forever !
He was my Father !
Hugs , Ben ! Freedom can show yourself in many forms !
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